A week ago, I announced I was going off social media and the reaction from family and friends were both hilarious and annoying.
It’s been one week and I can’t deny I still wake up and reach for my phone and flip through the empty homepage then remember…..I am on a break!
Yesterday I took a walk to the park, found a quiet spot and decided to bask in the sun like everyone else around me. That one hour I sat in the park was a life changing one for me. Normally, I would be on my phone, chatting or posting random stuff on Instagram like more than half of the people around.
But…I turned my phone off. Then I began to notice things around me I have completely ignored in the last 2 and half years because I am always on my phone! I suddenly had time to think and reflect without being distracted by the buzzing of my phone.
I thought about all the problems and challenges I was currently facing. This time around, I wasn’t bitching( pardon my French) about it to someone who didn’t care. I was talking to myself and it felt good. I reminded myself I was alone but lonely and that’s okay. I would need to remember this time of my life. The time I got into a relationship with myself and treated myself the way I wanted to be treated by anyone I might date in the future.
I watched the little kids play and the genuine happy look on their faces… Oh bless them. I just wanted to scream ‘don’t grow up, it’s a setup! Lol’. I noticed the lovers who indirectly try to pass the message that love shouldn’t fade as you age, the mothers who was getting a little bit of time out just letting thier kids run around. The dissertation dude who was trying to find inspiration to write from the music blasting in his ears and environment. I noticed everything and it felt like a rush of blood to the head. For that one hour I just sat there, I wasn’t a student in Bradford, I was just Tumi in my own space where I had full control.
I started chatting with a lady who came to the park with her kids. It was so nice to be the listener and not the talker. And then….. I was smiling! I was smiling just because I could smile and bask in the ‘now’ and deal with ‘later’ as it comes.
Sometimes, unconsciously, we have become slaves and prisoners to a world(social media) we voluntarily walk into. Maybe I just chose not to be a slave anymore. And hey, I’m smiling. Very important progress.
I walk back home, still smiling at everyone I passed regardless of the ‘normal’ hostile look you get around here. I wasn’t interested in them, I was too busy basking in my own awesomeness I have clearly ignored for too long.
I just might extend that 3 months break till the end of the year.